Thursday, March 31, 2011

Friday, it's Friday

Soon, very soon, I will be singing this song.


Oh, how I have been counting the hours until Friday...you have no idea.


Since taking Financial Peace University, I have been learning things about money and myself. Sometimes I'm just learning about money. Other lessons pierce my heart. Usually both happen, I feel smarter about financial decisions and more convicted about my own spending habits. 


Oh yeah
With this new system of budgeting, we have an allotted amount of money for things. When the money is gone, it's gone. I have never lived this way and it's a struggle. Denying oneself of the things SHE wants or needs is my Achilles heel. I want what I want when I want it, especially when it comes to food. I'm do not have an eating disorder, we are all within normal weight guidelines but food is my weakness. I like to cook, I REALLY like creating healthy meals. What is wrong with that???


Working in a soup kitchen in a poor village in Peru
Um, I can answer that question. When you spend too much money on groceries and you throw away food, that is a problem. When you have gone to third-world countries and really seen hungry people, trust me, pangs of shame pervade your spirit. I have despaired over my wastefulness and lack of culinary creativity. I have felt embarrassed bringing in bags of groceries when the refrigerator was already full. It's like I'm never satisfied and I really beat myself up afterward. 


My fridge and freezer are emptier than they've been in ages. 
I've always been able to justify my food spending. I don't wear lavish clothing, I've had a manicure maybe twice in my life, we don't live in a mansion. My indulgence is food. The Hubs knew better than to question GROCERIES! Hrmph! Did he want us eating JUNK? Did he want us to starve? Just keepin' it real.


But the Lord is doing a new thing and when the money for groceries ran out this week, I didn't run out to the store or farmer's market. What a battle with my flesh to not go and get some food staples! Instead we have been surviving on what we have in our cupboards, freezer and fridge. No one is starving. No one is deprived. I live with a sweet and generous husband who isn't a tyrant. If I wanted to go to the store and buy bananas, asparagus, flour, quinoa, sweet potatoes, firm tofu, carrots, kiwi, agave nectar, applesauce, butternut squash, rice milk, mozzarella cheese, onions, lettuce, cinnamon, milk, kale, aluminum foil, pineapples, wakame seaweed, etc., etc. (can you notice the zeal with which I wrote this list???)  I could have done that. 


It's obvious Dawn dishwashing liquid is DEFINITELY on my list!
But this has been between the Lord and me. Not the Hubs and I. And oh how I have valued being in contact with like-minded women via blogs like Lizzie, and Mary and Jenn and Julia along with facebook, phone and just regular fellowship. YOU have blessed me and fed me in ways the food couldn't. Thank you. 




I have about a tablespoon of gas in my car. Not complaining, just waiting until FRIDAY!!!!
God has been telling me to hang on until Friday. And with great confidence, He's promised me that this isn't going to be an April Fool's Day joke with Him. He has been saying, "Girl, I got you. I am providing. Let me do this."


I believe every word of this apron I made. 
I'm still going to write my "obituary" but I just had to share. Can you relate? 

5 comments:

Jenn said...

Cindy, I am so proud of you! You are going to feel so good tomorrow. This is like going on a diet... in a few more months this will be like second nature. You have done such a great job over the years of nourishing your family with good healthy food. You were already creative in the kitchen when I met you, but I have watched you blossom even more as you've expanded your tastes and your abilities. And now you're adding another layer to your role as wife/mom/chief operating officer of the W-H house. You guys are being good stewards of what God has given you, and He will honor that.

I could go on and on, but I just love seeing what you are going to do next. Francophile, bride, Betty Crocker, Li'l Mama, Olive Shoots grower, world traveler, hair shampooer, apron maker, spirit week slayer, coolest WP mom EVER, food dehydrator...

Carol said...

I give you a standing ovation! I have not used cash in so long, using the credit card and paying it off at the end of the month. We do not have credit card debt, but I am sure if I had to manually pull out cash and track my expenses by the envelope method, we would save money. If I am honest, I don't like the thought of the extra effort that goes into be this responsible. But, because of you blog post, I will prayerfully reconsider my decision. Again, kudos to you my friend.

Susan said...

Cindy,
I saw an article in our local paper about this, didn't think of you until i visited their website and saw the britches for little boys!
http://www.littledressesforafrica.org/blog/

Susan High

Meredith said...

Cindy,
I was devouring the advice on this blog today when I thought of you. It's a lot of info on how to eat well and still save.

http://www.kitchenstewardship.com/2011/04/06/eat-well-spend-less-bloggers-money-saving-specialties-shine/#more-10600

Meredith

sunstarfish said...

I can definitely relate. Thanks for sharing. It goes that way for homeschooling supplies for me too.