Friday morning the phone rings. When I inquire who is calling, the official sounding man gives his name and then says he's calling from Washington, DC. My heart drops as I hand the phone to my husband...
Even though my son is in New York, a sick feeling blackened my heart. The phone call was just a guy doing a survey and so my stomach returned to its original location and I started breathing again. This is not a fun feeling.
Today I'm checking my facebook. I check my facebook ALL the time and I check everybody's status ALL the time. Do you have a facebook? How many friends do you have? Do you like pieces of flair? I LOVE pieces of flair! Sorry, I digress, well I'm checking everybody's status and I notice that something is different on my son's facebook. His status has changed since last night. I have no idea how or why or even who did it. To my knowledge he doesn't have computer access. I have his password and I know I haven't touched his facebook. I was instructed not to do a thing unless absolutely necessary. So who did? A million questions are buzzing through my head. (Note: as of 9:45 this evening, I have learned that if a facebook status is inactive, it automatically expires. This means Nate is probably just fine - glory!)
When I got his letter over the weekend, I peered at each word he wrote trying to detect even the slightest hidden message. I read the words he put on paper but were there things he wasn't able to say. You know those things that only a mother can notice. Is he ok? Is he stressed? Is he rushed? Lonely? Sad? Happy? OY!!!
These are the moments, the MOMents when my faith is stretched. I call on my Savior to remind me that our All-Knowing, Omnipresent God is there for my son even when I am not. I have a friend whose husband graduated from USMA and was stationed in Saudi Arabia. I remember her telling me of being fearful of "the call" or "the visit." Praise the Lord she never experienced these things but now I get it. Even a week into our 47 month experience at West Point, I can better empathize with many military things.
My DH and I have raised a strong and resilient young man and we serve a mighty God.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Philippians 4:6
This is a special bag I bought at West Point. I love how this bag has all the names of new cadets printed on it, including my son!